Lawyers

I am being sued by the woman I ran into two years ago. She sued just before the two year deadline. She's asking for more than the liability insurance, or her lawyer is. She wasn't hurt very badly I was and my life changed. I was an active independent 75 year old and now I am a dependent, partly disabled depressed 78 year old. Wednesday I go see the lawyer who is representing me through State Farm. I almost hope this goes to court so I can face her. I'll have Eliot wheel me in in the wheelchair.

I am a very bad person and since I don't believe in hell, I am living it now. I spoke to a Buddhist and tried meditating but I'm not trying very hard. Sometimes when I have bad thoughts, I start counting my breath. I need my life to change radically and only I can do this. If I did the exercises I've been given by the physical therapists, it would be the first step and I could walk outside. The problem with that is walking alone and sometimes messing up Eliot's plans which he doesn't tell me about because he doesn't talk to me. But now I will always find out what they are before I go out. I will take a little walk now. It;s nice to go outside because I don't like being inside.