frustration

This whole dispute with eTeacherBiblical or whatever it's called is very upsetting. I keep on getting new charges on my Discover Card even after I spoke with someone at Discover who said they wouldn't accept any new charges from  them but these are dated previous to when I spoke to them but didn't appear until today. I also can't find the letter I wrote to Discover on Word. I probably didn't specifically save it. Calling Discover is being put on hold. I think I should send a check to Discover to pay for all the other charges but that I'm not going to pay for any of the eTeacher charges and  ask them to close the account.
My other frustration is with Eliot. We saw a movie today which evoked all kind of emotions in me but all he says is "It was kinda cute" That expression is his usual statement about most stuff. His other expressions are "I have no idea" and a similar expression which I can't think of now. And of course it's impossible to have any political discussion because everything he says mimics Rush Limbaugh or IBD. And then I end up thinking that's what I deserve because I got into this relationship selfishly. He has money although he's stingy about most things and the sex used to be good. Now there's no sex and we can't really travel much because of his health.

waiting for Rochester

Tomorrow I'm flying to Rochester, actually to Buffalo where Patrick will pick me up in the middle of the night and take me to a fancy motel in Rochester where Artie has made reservations in an accessible room. Jake and Eldar are in Rochester staying with Steven Spinder. It should be interesting. I hope I'm physically able to do the activities. It will be different to be in an environment where people talk. And don't say "I have no idea" which is what Eliot replies to me when I ask him most anything. So far when I ask Jake on the phone or in emails something technical, he says "wait and ask Eldar". I hope it is true that Eldar can answer any questions I have about the tablet like how do you know how many times to tap or how many fingers to use. Now I'm waiting to try and do my first Hebrew class. I don't know if I can reply to anything because I have never had the opportunity to converse with anybody on both the computer and table. I think I'll try to google a solution.